Oscar-winning actress Nicole Kidman previously said she would discuss her miscarriages “one day” and it seems that day has finally come, as the 50-year-old Australian star opened up about her grief to Tatler magazine.
The mum-of-four has spoken candidly about the failed pregnancies she suffered during her marriage to fellow Hollywood star Tom Cruise, describing the “enormous amount of pain” the losses caused.
And Nicole, who is now married to country music singer Keith Urban, revealed the pain she felt is still as raw today.
She said: “I know the yearning. That yearning. It’s a huge, aching yearning. And the loss! The loss of a miscarriage is not talked about enough. That’s massive grief to certain women.”
The Big Little Lies star was just 23 when she lost her first child by Cruise, not long after their wedding in 1990, because of an ectopic pregnancy, which occurs when an embryo starts to develop in a fallopian tube instead of in the womb.
Nicole finally fell pregnant again but tragically suffered a miscarriage around the same time that Cruise filed for divorce in 2001, after an 11-year marriage.
Nicole revealed the heartbreak of losing a child led the couple to adopt their children Isabella and Connor, now 25 and 23-years-old respectively.
She said: “There’s an enormous amount of pain and an enormous amount of joy on the other side of it.
“The flipside of going through so much yearning and pain to get there is the feeling of ‘Ahhhh!’ when you have the child.”
Nicole remarried in 2006 when she tied the knot with Keith Urban, also 50, and the couple have two daughters, nine-year-old Sunday Rose and seven-year-old Faith Margaret together. Their youngest daughter was carried by a surrogate, affectionately referred to as Aunty Sheila.
The couple have been open about their desire to expand their family further, with Nicole previously admitting she is interested in fostering children with Keith.
Last year, she told BBC Radio 4’s Woman’s Hour: “I’m one of the few people in the world who has experienced so many different forms of (motherhood).
“But I haven’t had the child from a donor egg. I haven’t also been a foster mother and I’m very interested in that… But I did foster a child that I met through school, an aboriginal boy.”