Family portraits don't tell the whole story....

I loved taking photos of my children when they were growing up – it was a wonderful tradition and I had boxes and photo frames filled. I never made them pose so I could capture their natural, happy expressions.

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In my childhood, during the 50s and 60s, my mother would have my uncle take photos of us every year – he had a very nice and expensive camera. Every Christmas my mother, father and I would stand together, up straight, smiling broadly for the photo. But those photos were a lie, much like so many supposedly happy family portraits. Now and then, I stumble upon one in an old album and wonder what my mother was thinking when she organised the shoot. Her husband was in the RAAF and was never home and presumed to be having an affair, and she had a child she didn’t like. But she wanted everyone to think so was OK, to keep up appearances as you did in those days. There was no such thing as a broken home, and if you had a divorce, you were a disgrace. 290115_vintage_family_photo

I was speaking to my daughter yesterday and that’s where the idea for this blog came from – she wanted to get some of her wedding photos framed. She asked if I had any photos of my family and I said that I had lost them. I didn’t want to display a photo of my mother and father trying to make it look like we were a real family. I fell pregnant at 19 and in those days, it was not something you could do as an unwed woman. I was better off dead in my mother’s eyes.

The same year, my mum stopped having family photos taken. She clearly couldn’t bring herself to have more photos of her family, now that I had disgraced them. Her husband was away constantly and having an affair? She could cover that up. Her daughter was an unwed fool? She was ashamed.

I quickly got married to the man who had gotten me pregnant, and at my wedding, it was insisted that my husband and I, plus my parents, would get a photo together. My mum put on the biggest smile I’ve ever seen, and tenderly touched me on the arm as I sat in front of her. Immediately after the photo, I remember her asking “Are we done here?” and excusing herself before walking outside. She told me later that if I moved away from Canberra with my new husband, she would never speak to me again. She sure had an odd way of showing she loved me!

I did end up moving to Melbourne with my husband, who ended it with me a short time later after a miscarriage. I told my mother over the phone and she said “Good”, then hung up. She promptly shipped me our family photos and anything else of mine she owned. She was free of me, finally, just like she had always wanted. But so was I. I went on to meet a wonderful new husband (married 38 years now) and give birth to three children. My mother held her promise to not speak to me again but I eventually sent her a photo of the family, smiling and happy, in an unposed photograph. I hope she hung it up proudly…

Did you ever have posed family portraits that hid a secret or sadness? What do they look like? Tell us below.